I really thought I’d be up to it by now…
A few weeks away from the writing pressure I put upon myself, of writing posts regularly, and I thought I’d be itching to get back.
But I’m not.
I still enjoy being here, reading posts, commenting on others, but I can’t make myself write.
My brain is just not engaged at all.
It’s like a cloud has settled over my blogger’s brain…
I feel like I’ve lost my spark…
I’m not in any sort of depression, I don’t think, I’m just so tired.
It happens at the end of the academic year.
There is so much to do at school on top of the day to day pressures: assessment, report writing, home visits, class lists to make for the next year… all things that take a lot of thinking and time.
Home is the same: housework, family to feed, helping with homework, laundry, being the usual parent taxi to clubs and matches…
I am taking down time, honestly, but instead of posting, as I usually do, I’m just reading. Enjoying books and reading posts.
But the lethargy I feel, and the migraines that are coming back after a two month hiatus, it’s not good.
I’ve entered that novel writing competition, tweaking the first 3,000 words that needed submitting, but don’t want to touch the rest of the manuscript, to execute some changes as suggested by my alpha readers.
Not because I can’t be bothered, but because I don’t feel up to my best, mentally and emotionally, and my prized WIP deserves more than that, maybe a CampRiNo in the summer holidays again, to give it the extra oomph it requires…
So, I’ll just leave that there for you all, in case you find my spark… or any extra energy you can send my way…
But don’t worry Peeps, I’m still smiling, because that’s what I do 🙂
But I Smile Anyway... 
Jul 09, 2018 @ 03:58:27
Always love reading your personal posts with your wit and flair!!! Perhaps, there are embers waiting for you to put on some kindling???
Suggestion: Go to bed early, get up at 4 a.m. sit in a recliner with a soft light on, go to google (on a laptop) and type in “Free photos/quotes on (insert the topic that you love the most) and read these for awhile, then go back and do the same thing over again with your second most favorite thing. I seem to find that the beauty and wisdom of others and great photos usually inspire me to write – something! Ha! Worth a shot. The Wee Small Hours of the night seem to attract the Muses of the Universe!
xoxoxo
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Jul 09, 2018 @ 13:08:02
Thanks for the suggestions Chuck! I only wish I could get up that early, then function properly for the rest of the day lol!
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Jun 27, 2018 @ 14:47:57
You’re such a giving person. Sometimes, you just need to take time for yourself. Enjoy your break! 🙂🌻
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Jun 27, 2018 @ 15:43:18
Thank you Tonya 😍 it is less pressure on me… But I do miss it too!!!
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Jun 24, 2018 @ 20:22:47
Reblogged this on Everyday Operations to Inspirational Living.
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Jun 19, 2018 @ 04:47:56
Sometimes it happens that the writers block jus refuses to go away… Feel u here in this post … 🙂
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Jun 19, 2018 @ 05:57:50
Thank you Nithi. I hope it’ll be back soon…
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Jun 17, 2018 @ 16:46:42
I wondered where you were. I think this is the first time you’ve ever missed my poetry challenge. You deserve a break. Enjoy your time. See you when you get back. ❤
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Jun 17, 2018 @ 16:49:07
Thanks sis. I think I just needed to not put myself under any undue pressure 💜
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Jun 17, 2018 @ 17:50:48
Agreed, Sis. I don’t know how you do it all. Spend some mindfulness on you. You deserve it. ❤
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Jun 17, 2018 @ 17:57:58
I’m trying 💜
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Jun 17, 2018 @ 15:55:45
Dormancy is part of the life cycle. I’m searching for my spark too. Nice to know I’m not alone.
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Jun 17, 2018 @ 15:58:11
We are in this darkness together 😊
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Jun 17, 2018 @ 18:07:48
It’s tough times.
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Jun 16, 2018 @ 20:04:09
Look after yourself Ritu. We cannot do everything x but minding ourselves is key. Your spark is just having a little rest😘
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Jun 16, 2018 @ 20:07:48
Thank you Orla. Here’s hoping it rests itself soon! Xx
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Jun 16, 2018 @ 19:55:55
Take a break. It isn’t fun when it feels like a chore. We will be here when you come back.
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Jun 16, 2018 @ 19:56:56
Thanks Tiffany 😍
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Jun 16, 2018 @ 17:53:29
Self-care is the first call of duty. So enjoy some time reading and recharging. We all need it sometime.
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Jun 16, 2018 @ 17:54:19
Thank you Jennifer xx
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Jun 16, 2018 @ 16:23:07
I hope that spark returns soon, Ritu! But in the meantime, don’t feel guilty about taking some well earned downtime to enjoy reading, you’ve been doing so much it’s no surprise if your brain needs a rest! x
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Jun 16, 2018 @ 16:24:36
Thanks Claire. In all honesty the tiredness is so much I read a few pages and want to sleep!
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