Banshee | But I Smile Anyway...

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I have lost count of times I have ‘cancelled’ Friday, aka Lil Princess’s birthday, over the last few days!
If I haven’t cancelled, I’ve threatened to cancel.
Why do I bother?
It happens all the time.
Things go wrong, behaviour hits an all time low, and I resort to these ’empty’ threats. I mean really? Am I that strong that I could cancel a birthday?!
Nope, I really couldn’t. I’m too soft.
I mean, I have the power of the banshee, at times. Even Hubby Dearest gives me a look when they drive me so insane that I can’t stop but shout.
But its all just noise, isn’t it?
Lil Princess, still getting in our bed, every night… No taking things away or canceling of things, or the threat of, has worked.
Lil Man, the same. Silly repetitive behavior, and the thought of no football, or Dhol lessons, might stop things for a short while, but its all back to the same old within days or hours even…

Where am I going wrong? Maybe one day I really do need to ‘cancel’ something…
(I might make something up, and cancel that!)

So I know it’s now the 3rd of January, and generally resolutions are meant to be kept on the 1st, but I have made a decision, I will stop hollering/screaming/shouting at the kids!

Firstly, it will save my throat!

Secondly, I have noticed how Lil Princess nowadays raises her voice rather a lot, and I guess children learn what they see, and I am so guilty of this!

There was a time when I was such a calm person, with the patience of a saint…then I had kids of my own!!!!

And yes, standing in the middle of the brother/sister war zone, sometimes the only way to be heard is to shout…. But no, I must control my urges!

So from today, I will try so hard to listen, and reason with the two monkeys in a cool, calm and collected way, before resorting to the banshee style that I tend to favour, unfortunately!

I will keep you posted with my endeavours to be quieter!

(So far today, I did really good, until I was trying to type my last post, and they were being little s***s, so slight volume control -or no volume control -was exercised…! Oops! Still. Baby steps, baby steps!)