Being Dad…


It was an innocent comment on my post Being Mum, that Rajiv Chopra, that inspired me to think like a man for once… Ok, so you all know I have a bit of a habit of dressing up, and I have also gone down the route of dressing up as the hairier sex of the species on occasion, but I have never really put myself in their shoes…at least not by thinking like, perhaps how a new father might feel… So here goes…

God, it’s not so much fun, is it, when you have to perform on command? She said tonight was a good night, but to be honest, I’ve had a couple of beers, and I’m not sure it’s a good night… for me anyway. The last time I tried to be a little amorous, she was like “No! My eggs aren’t ready yet, but in a couple of days we can…” It really takes the fun out of baby-making! Surely we just need to keep ‘having a go’ and we’ll get lucky soon enough.
But, you know, it breaks my heart, seeing her every time those damn tests come back negative. I don’t know how to get her to chill out… I know it’ll happen… I know it will. Our time will come.  It hurts me too, you know, somewhere deep inside, but I don’t show it because she gets so cut up, one of us has to be strong…
A few months later…
Ok so it happened… Jeez!!! I’m going to be a father!!! Whoa!! God, that happened quicker than I though… But hey, I always knew it would… I was starting to worry, maybe I’d been firing blanks. But no! It’s all good!!!!
Nearing the end of the pregnancy…
Wow! I wish this baby would just come, already! We had the couple of months of sickness, in fact even I made her sick at times. Apparently I can’t eat curry.  The smell made her gag! I’ve become an expert at back rubs, foot rubs, belly cradling. The guy at the 24 hour garage knows me by name. Well, where else do I go, for that odd craving for Twiglets, at 3am??!!
She was tired… God was she tired, at the beginning, but then she got this burst of energy, and how do I put it… She got a bit randy! But I was a bit tentative in my advances.. I mean, come on! My baby’s somewhere down there!!! I don’t want to hit it!
Taking of baby, the scan. Seriously, if there is a time a grown man should get emotional, it’s seeing that little swimmer of yours, turned into a real live, wriggly thing that’s eventually gonna become a baby. I was pretty strong the first time round. To be honest, I couldn’t make head nor tail of what the sonographer was showing us! I just smiled and nodded, and when she was getting excited telling everyone about the scan, and showing off the picture, I just smiled and nodded, again… But the second one. Now that was a different matter. There was most definitely a baby in there, no alien like creature! I could see the arms and legs, a face… That was my baby.  I put my hands up. As I squeezed her hand, my eyes might have been a bit moist. Proud daddy to be, showed that picture off to everyone!
She told me about the movements, but to be honest, I felt a little left out. I couldn’t see or feel anything, at first, when my hand was placed over the bump. I just smiled, and nodded. Yes, again! But there came a time when I could feel it. My, that baby had some kick! A future footy player for sure! And laying there at night, while she was complaining about her distended belly, and stretch marks…(what are they, anyway?!) I saw a ripple… I saw baby move!!! Inside her belly, I saw my baby move!!!
The day came…
Oh God, its really hurting her! I dont know what to do, to make it any better for her! Music, oils, back rubs, bouncy balls.. Those antenatal classes were rubbish! Can’t they just give her something for the pain? And maybe me too… She’s digging her nails into my hand so deep, but I can’t risk mentioning it… Every time I catch her eye, she looks at me like I’m the devil, and she curses me for putting her in this excruciating position!!! But she calms down when the contraction is done.
The doctor said the baby’s crowning… What? Oh, you mean it’s coming???!!! Oh dear God! Jeez!! What do I do??!?
Push!!!!!!!!!!
Aaaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhhh!!!
Oh My God!!!
I’m a Dad!!!!!
Cut the cord, I did. I’m so connected with my baby, a true 21st century dad!
He.
Didn’t I say? It’s a boy! Anyway, he’s a hungry little thing, feeding from mummy… He seems to have been doing a lot of that… I thought babies slept more… This one seems to be permanently attached to my former fun bags, sorry I mean to my wife’s breast!
A few days later…
What do you mean ‘sleep like a baby’??? Thank God for paternity leave, is all I can say!!! He cries all night, and whenever I go in for a cuddle with her, he seems to know… Son, I love you, but I love my wife, that’s your mum, too!!
She’s exhausted, bless her. The nights are hard, I don’t have boobs, and expressing didn’t work… I try to do the winding, heck I’ve even changed disgusting nappies! But he only settles with her…
Back to work…
Wow, even the commuter train feels like bliss… No crying baby, no nappies, other human contact. I mean with people who talk about usual things, not just the next feed, the colour of his poo, and all things baby related… I love my son, but he’s hard work!!! I’m sure I wasn’t like that, I must ask my mum…
It was a long day, but I actually feel refreshed! Back home to wife and son, and the baby life…
Oh, and can I say, babe, your belly, and those stretch marks you keep on going on about? They don’t matter… Think of them as a trophy… After all, you just completed a pretty mean feat!

You know, I can appreciate a father can feel quite the outsider in the early months of being a parent. Physically, there is nothing you can do to change that, but in those few months, just some support, the offer of a cup of tea, taking baby for a walk, giving new mum a chance for a long soak, or just a little break… Those little things help, and remember, especially for a new mum, it’s such a wrench from their former life… Everyone needs to adjust, and for her sanity, she needs time with other adults. Similarly, new mummies, don’t shut daddy out. He can’t do some things, but there is a lot he can do to help!!
You’re in it together, after all… 🙂

38 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Ritu
    Jul 26, 2017 @ 12:26:05

    Thank you for reading and appreciating!

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  2. Forever Being Daddy
    Jul 26, 2017 @ 12:05:54

    This was the most moving post. Thank you so much for writing it. So much of what you’re saying is true in my experience and the experience of fellow dads around me. Thank you for taking the time to think about parenting from that perspective. It’s a great read.

    Jason Ramsey
    Foreverbeingdaddy.wordpress.com

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  3. jennysdatingadvice
    Jun 08, 2017 @ 06:58:07

    Love this. Thank you!

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  4. pranabaxom
    Jun 06, 2017 @ 20:45:25

    Man, you are funny!
    I am sure you did not mention “your” temper tantrums on purpose☺
    “hairier sex of the species on occasion” – lost everything on top after three kids😭

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  5. willowdot21
    Jun 06, 2017 @ 10:09:22

    So beautiful Ritu, and so apt, watching my son yesterday . The baby born on Saturday and their little three year old son being so good and helpful. I agree Dads are heros too. This is a wonderful poem Sis.💖💗💝💜

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  6. The Shower of Blessings
    Jun 06, 2017 @ 06:34:09

    Wonderful post, Ritu! That is what my daughter and son-in-law doing right now. She is due September 19. He just felt the first move or a little knock, knock a three weeks ago. He is a good guy, very sensitive in helping my daughter. I’m happy for them!

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  7. walkerkaty0
    Jun 01, 2015 @ 00:25:22

    This captured it perfectly 🙂

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  8. Mariposaoro
    May 31, 2015 @ 13:41:36

    Aaaww.. I think you’ve captured the monologue of thoughts of a dad. From beginning to birth, and trivialities of having a live baby. Good work, I think its good to put ourselves in the dads shoes-They put up with a lot and are frightened of parenthood too!!

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  9. Rajiv
    May 31, 2015 @ 04:41:13

    Well said! I never, ever wanted kids. Or marriage. Then, I got married. Then, I had kids. My daughter was first. The time I looked at her face the first time changed me forever

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  10. OldenGray
    May 30, 2015 @ 06:45:30

    Not too bad young lady! Men do not think like women so the first year is a training period for the first born. Having the second one is a real eye opener. I recall thinking, this is going to be a piece of cake (easy) because I have already fathered a daughter so a son will be pretty much the same. I was sure I lost my mind in the middle of that one as I learned a new lesson. They call all those babies individuals because they are not the same. I was not as foolish on the third and last one as I was more prepared for extreme changes, and they did happen.
    Ritu, you get high marks on this one! And I wonder how you keep being nominated for so many awards! :o)

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  11. Erika Kind
    May 29, 2015 @ 22:21:13

    Wow, Ritu! What a beautiful idea to make us see the miracle of life through a father’s eyes. I often asked my husband how he experienced pregnancy and birth because I wondered how it was for him. But he never told me. Your post now gives me a bit of an idea.

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  12. wafflemethis
    May 29, 2015 @ 20:30:55

    Lol thats us😊

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  13. edwinasepisodes
    May 29, 2015 @ 20:09:58

    Great post Ritu, It is true, dads can do a lot to help us during the whole pregnancy birth and looking after the kids experience. Like you say cups of tea, back rubs and running baths are all welcome, as it changing nappies and rocking babies to sleep when we are knackered!

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