WRITESPIRATION #137 52 WEEKS IN 52 WORDS WEEK 42 – Scared @sacha_black #MeToo

Sacha’s #Writespiration prompt this week:

Your challenge is to write your story using the weekly theme/prompt and write it in just 52 words…. EXACTLY, no more, no less.

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Next week we will have missed Halloween, so today’s challenge is to write 52 words of a character that is utterly terrified.

Inspired by the hashtag #MeToo that is doing the rounds on Twitter and Facebook at the moment, highlighting abuse that has been hidden for so long.

Those eyes. They won’t stop looking.
Those feet. They won’t stop following.
Those hands. They won’t stop touching.
Those fingers. They won’t stop digging.
My mouth. It won’t open.
My voice. It won’t work.
My feet. They won’t walk away.
My eyes. They won’t tear away from that menacing gaze.
Petrified.
#MeToo

http://sachablack.co.uk/2017/10/18/writespiration-137-52-weeks-in-52-words-week-42/

Help! Spider Experts!

Found A BIG BOTTOMED SPIDER in the garden today… Never seen it before… Is it one to worry about!??!!

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And to show the size, near my hand…

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Any experts out there?!!

But I Smile Anyway...

Scaredy Cat!

I’ve not always been a brave rat-fighter, like the other day, you know.
When I was a little whippersnapper, Pops was my savior on many occasion!
Spiders, moths, daddy long legs, flies, bees, wasps… Anything small that moved, basically, would result in the screaming down of the house, by me, of course!

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In our bedrooms, before they were banned from use because of being fire hazards, we had polystyrene ceiling tiles. And at night, God forbid if any flying creature were to come into my room! The moth or daddy long legs would fly around at the top of the room, hitting the ceiling, making a scratching noise, and I would hear it first, then tentatively switch on the light, locate it, then scream for my dad! Eyes fixed on the poor little creature, terrified of it coming near me, I’d wait for dad, then point in the direction of the object of pure terror, and wait for him to catch, and dispose of said monster, before being able to sleep again!
Note, I said dispose of, as Pops would never kill them, he’d gently catch them, and let them free from a window.

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It continued, Pops being my private bug catcher, until I was much older.
But having a younger brother, who knew of my fears… Not a good thing!
I always remember him handing me a cotton bud box, with a clear lid. He actually didn’t hand it to me, he waved it in my face, and when I registered what was inside… You guessed it, I screamed!

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It was filled with 5-6 daddy long legs that he had captured, and imprisoned, with the sole purpose of torturing me with it! Boy, did he enjoy the squeals from me, running and hiding!
(This is the kind of thing Lil Man does to
Lil Princess, but substitute the insects for bananas… Yes, she’s scared of fruit! (Or was…!)
He kept them for a few days, in that pot, before realizing they needed food and water, and space to fly… Giving  them their freedom after they had actually died!

Coming back to me getting older… I wasn’t always going to be at home, with the safety net of Pops… University beckoned, and suddenly I was 2 hours away from any Pops help! Uh oh! What to do??!

*Stereotype coming up!*
It was great, there were always lads around, strapping or not, ready to help us damsels in distress, and we would daintily call for our knights in shining armor  to rescue us from those nasty spiders and moths… Except one evening, I remember bring in the kitchen of our halls of residence. We were cooking at around 2am, as students do, and a moth dared to fly in through the window. Well, that was it! Screams from us girls, much flapping ensued! Entry from our savior… A lovely lad, who was a friend of one of the girls in the kitchen. He burst in, chest extended, and asked what the problem was, before spotting the monster moth… (Who was probably smaller than average!) And proceeded to scream, like a girl, prancing about the kitchen, trying to get away from the moth!!! Of course we just burst into fits of giggles! God knows what happened to the moth… It probably flew out after hearing the man-girl screams!

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Then I turned a corner.
Somewhere, somehow, I became brave!
We moved into student houses, where there were 4-5 of us girls, and no steady stream of brave knights. We had to learn to cope. The first couple of years we were OK, there was always one of my housemates ready to tackle any intruders.
But there came a time when I was the oldest there… I’d graduated, but still lived out, with some younger friends of mine. And they ALL had the FEAR!!!!
All of a sudden I became mum of the house! From, encouraging them to study, to trying to cook regularly, I took on these duties… And I even became the ‘go to girl’ for pest removal… Me! The screaming  banshee of yesteryear was now a brave knight… A savior to my younglings!!!

My Pops saw me in action one time my parents came to visit and he was shocked!!! He couldn’t believe his scaredy cat daughter had grown up!
And as a real mum, I continue these duties… Even as a teacher too!

Just the other week we went to observe at the school pond , and a little lad was jumping around because there was a bee! I got him to calm down, and said bee disappeared, but made another appearance… Cue flappy arms and ” Mrs Bhathal! I don’t like bees, I don’t like em! Mrs Bhathal! It’s coming for me! Mrs Bhathal quick! Pick me up!!!”

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Oh and I omitted to mention that on that visit, and 4 others, I caught frogs, and a toad! ME!!!!!!!!!! See, I’m not scared any more!!!

Any fears you have overcome??

But I Smile Anyway...

When is it the right time…?

I don’t want to let go, I seriously can’t even consider it at the moment!

I mean, let go of my babies, and allow them to grow up!

This year Lil Man is in year 5 – aged between 9 and 10. We got letters about an after school club, and for the first time, there was the option to allow your child to leave the school premises alone, with parental permission, to go home. Not a big deal, right? No, no, no, huge, massive, enormous deal!!

I know I’m over protective about the kids, but you know, after struggles to have them, and knowing the way of the world nowadays, I feel like I can’t contemplate it yet! He’s lucky, ( or not, depends how you look at it!) I work at the school, and I’ll always be around to pick him and Lil Princess up, and if I can’t, his grandparents are available most of the time too. Well, I will until the end of next year, then he starts ‘BIG SCHOOL’!

Lil Man is just that, little. He’s a feisty chap, with a lot of emotions too. Being of small stature, he’s a possible target for being picked on, but he does manage to avert things by being the clown. He does have great friends who he sticks around with at school. If things happen, he’s still young enough to tell us, but it takes a while. But he’s also someone who is ready to defend himself too. These things worry me… What if he doesn’t have these same friends at his new school, to be a support network? What if he gets picked on by some bigger kids, walking to/from school? What if this happens and he gets in a fight?

I know, he can’t be wrapped up in cotton wool for ever, but I just can’t do it!
Ok, so I’ve got to the stage where in the mornings, I leave him in the playground so I can get set for work, and when he has his karate lessons, sometimes I don’t stay, but that’s about it! But then he gets a bit anxious when he knows I’m not around as well.

One of his previous teachers was worried about him having dyspraxia tendencies at one time… That wasn’t proved, but there is something there. I’m not sure what. Ok, so they say we’re all on ‘the spectrum’ somewhere, and I do think maybe there’s an element of truth about him too. He still has such an innocence about him, more so than a lot of his classmates. The innocence 9 year olds in my day all had. Nowadays kids are so advanced, and know so much… It all this technology they have access to that feeds their minds, giving them chances to see/read things they wouldn’t have had a chance to a few years back.

And this technology, and social media is probably a silent feeder for me and my anxieties too. You can’t turn a page in a newspaper, log into Facebook, or see the Internet home pages without reading something negative, about kidnappings, stabbings, murder, bullying, rape…

I’m pretty sure these things happened all those years ago, well we all know they did, look at the celebrity scandals that are being uncovered all the time from years gone by, and stories that are reported on nowadays. But the thing is, we weren’t aware of them constantly. Something hugely major would be in the national papers or on the news on TV, not everything. Now, you hear something, and within seconds, someone has written and posted about it, right or wrong, and the rumour mill starts up… Or the anxieties of parents like me are pumped up.

So excuse me if I don’t want to let go too soon. Things are scary out there. He’s a precious lil boy and I want to give him the right life skills, but I don’t know when to start! And as for Lil Princess… Well she’s 6 going on 16 and wants to do everything her big brother gets to do right now! I don’t think these things would bother her too much, her confidence is pretty solid.

Unlike her brother. If he was playing his drum, you could stand him up, in front of a thousand, and he wouldn’t bat an eyelid! But the idea of going to big school alone with none of his mates, that scares the hell out of him. He does talk about walking to and from school alone, when that time will come, and though he is quite excited about it, there is a little nervous glint in his eyes as he talks about it. And it makes my heart ache…

So,like I said, I don’t want to let go…

He’s not old enough yet!

But when is the right time???

My interactive peeps!

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