Lost: One Spark. If Found, Please Respond Below…

I really thought I’d be up to it by now…

A few weeks away from the writing pressure I put upon myself, of writing posts regularly, and I thought I’d be itching to get back.

But I’m not.

I still enjoy being here, reading posts, commenting on others, but I can’t make myself write.

My brain is just not engaged at all.

It’s like a cloud has settled over my blogger’s brain…

I feel like I’ve lost my spark…

I’m not in any sort of depression, I don’t think, I’m just so tired.

It happens at the end of the academic year.

There is so much to do at school on top of the day to day pressures: assessment, report writing, home visits, class lists to make for the next year… all things that take a lot of thinking and time.

Home is the same: housework, family to feed, helping with homework, laundry, being the usual parent taxi to clubs and matches…

I am taking down time, honestly, but instead of posting, as I usually do, I’m just reading. Enjoying books and reading posts.

But the lethargy I feel, and the migraines that are coming back after a two month hiatus, it’s not good.

I’ve entered that novel writing competition, tweaking the first 3,000 words that needed submitting, but don’t want to touch the rest of the manuscript, to execute some changes as suggested by my alpha readers.

Not because I can’t be bothered, but because I don’t feel up to my best, mentally and emotionally, and my prized WIP deserves more than that, maybe a CampRiNo in the summer holidays again, to give it the extra oomph it requires…

So, I’ll just leave that there for you all, in case you find my spark… or any extra energy you can send my way…

But don’t worry Peeps, I’m still smiling, because that’s what I do πŸ™‚

And I will be back soon, honestly!

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  1. Lisa Orchard
    Jun 16, 2018 @ 15:09:52

    I totally understand how you feel, Ritu. I get that way at the end of the year, too and I’m working part time in the library! So I can just imagine how a teacher feels. Your writing spark will come back. You just need to rest. My writing slows down at the end of the school year, too.

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  2. Gary
    Jun 16, 2018 @ 15:02:08

    I’d call it a natural kick back Ritu. Intense writing often leads to a writers hangover. If the routine of doing it suddenly ends then fog hits and sometimes you just need to step away for a break. King says finish it in first draft then stick it in a drawer for a month before going back. It lets the brain settle and the approach later is fresh again. Obviously, if you spend to long in this sparkles place I’ll be back 😍

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  3. Jacqui Murray
    Jun 16, 2018 @ 14:55:03

    Working mom… migraines… Hmm… sounds like me. This too shall pass. I’m subscribing so I can see how you get yourself out of this funk (with a smile)!

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    • Ritu
      Jun 16, 2018 @ 15:25:57

      Thank you so much Jacqui!
      It is no fun, especially when I have been a really active blogger/writer in the past… but this too shall pass, as you say, I hope!!

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  4. Jennie
    Jun 16, 2018 @ 14:04:14

    Overworked does it. There are days I just can’t do all I need to do for school and write and blog. Sigh. I think you’ll find your spark under your pillow with some sleep. πŸ™‚

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  5. arv!
    Jun 16, 2018 @ 12:17:22

    You are one of the most active bloggers that I have come across who despite being involved in so many things finds time to be active in the blogosphere. I’m sure you will find enough time and energy to blog again. Give yourself a break, Ritu!

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  6. Smorgasbord - Variety is the Spice of Life.
    Jun 16, 2018 @ 10:29:44

    You have a huge commitment already Ritu and I don’t think when I was gainfully employed I could have found the time or the energy to blog let alone write stories or a book. Cut yourself some slack and I will send you over some calming thoughts instead of sparks, so that you enjoy any free time you have… enjoy and we will all be here when you feel up to it.. hugs xxxβ™₯

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  7. Parul Thakur
    Jun 16, 2018 @ 08:46:45

    Sending you some positive energy. How about sharing in pictures all about your last week? Or maybe food? πŸ™‚

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  8. soulwriterforhim
    Jun 15, 2018 @ 11:54:17

    Forecast here is dry as well. It’s like all the words fell out of my head! It happens- it’s rest time for the brain.

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  9. foodzesty
    Jun 15, 2018 @ 06:53:12

    You need to rest your brain and body….Take your time we will all be here πŸ™‚ Huge huge hugs Ritu….

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  10. thereluctantpoet
    Jun 14, 2018 @ 21:20:34

    Loved your post! Your emoji’s are great! You are right to take time when you need it. You might want to try what I like to do – #1 – Write Haiku – 17 syllables in 3 lines; quick, simple and done! a finished piece! #2 – when I read the works of others I’m always on the lookout for really great words/phrases and lines that are seeds of inspiration or little gems that I save in a Word Bank for future use.

    I have had numerous times when I couldn’t even get them recorded in my Word Bank because the words just started coming in a stream of consciousness, which is so wonderful. It makes reading the works of others even more fun!
    xoxo

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    • Ritu
      Jun 15, 2018 @ 05:54:46

      Oh I agree!
      I have always written haiku, they come quite easily to me, but I just don’t have the energy…
      Still, not long now, then I am sure my spark will be back!

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  11. You Can Always Start Now
    Jun 14, 2018 @ 20:05:57

    Listen to what your body is telling you. If that means slowing down and reading to re-energy do it. I have been in an off mood lately and I’m trying to shake myself out of it by different creative pursuits. Take care of yourself.

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  12. Charli Mills
    Jun 14, 2018 @ 19:47:24

    It’s just a season and time for you to “fill the well.” And… Here’s where the 99 word constraint can be used. By now, it’s imprinted a pattern on your brain. It’s the same idea behind building healthy habits. Write how tired you are this time of year in 99 words. Brainstorm post ideas in 99 words. Write about your WIP characters in 99 words. By the time you write three, you’ll experience a spark! It’s flash magic (based on science). And your smile is always uplifting! ❀

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  13. Rarenwise
    Jun 14, 2018 @ 19:11:22

    πŸ€” I may need some time to investigate this missing spark. Don’t beat yourself up, look how often ive lost mine. It happens . When life changes. Everything changes.

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  14. D. Wallace Peach
    Jun 14, 2018 @ 17:48:12

    It sounds like you need a technology break, Ritu. I hope you take the time for yourself. Turn everything off and rediscover the other joys of life without needing to be “wired.” It might do you wonders. ❀

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  15. seaangel4444
    Jun 14, 2018 @ 12:35:59

    I am sending you tons of positive energy and light, dear Ritu! Cher xo

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  16. joey
    Jun 13, 2018 @ 23:03:21

    Take care! You’re full of spark, just you need to use it on other things right now πŸ™‚

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  17. keen peach
    Jun 13, 2018 @ 20:01:34

    Oh man. I hate when this happens! Your mojo will come back. You are doing the right thing in just backing away for a bit. You will be good as new in no time! I hate that you are having the headaches though. Hoping those don’t last! πŸ’•

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  18. Rae Longest
    Jun 13, 2018 @ 11:25:08

    Praying for you.

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  19. Marje @ Kyrosmagica
    Jun 13, 2018 @ 10:36:45

    Take care Ritu sounds like you need some me time. Rest as much as you can and before you know it you’ll have your Ritu spark back. Hugs. Xxx

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  20. β€œWho is this β€˜Bradley Wright’ ?”
    Jun 13, 2018 @ 06:31:58

    It will return when it has the space to thrive. Sometimes a break from the word is just what is needed. Take care and take moments for yourself without the guilt that you are not writing – a balance is required. G:)

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  21. Leanne
    Jun 13, 2018 @ 06:16:15

    Mental exhaustion will take it’s toll temporarily, but it will pass. Both of my blogs have been neglected from work exhaustion. However, mine has passed from inspiration that comes to me. LOL! I’m still waiting to use the “pockets of sun in the evening sky” that almost caused several accidents because I was so in awe as I was driving home (day after day) and I wasn’t paying attention to the road. LOL! Long story short, give yourself time to recover and let inspiration come to you.

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  22. dearanonymousfriend
    Jun 13, 2018 @ 02:06:54

    I am certain your spark is close by, just adding some more luster. I haven’t written, and I know what that lull feels like, and I have none of the commitments you have. It will all come back to you,just give yourself a break. I look forward to your words and thoughts after you have rested. Cathi

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  23. Erika Kind
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 19:31:47

    Don’t worry, sis! Take your time and do what cannot be just skipped. As soon as we feel obliged to do or even stressed with what is supposed to be a hobby, we should take a break. Life has first priority and then we can fill the open spaces with other things. Much love and sparkling hugs to send you some energy for making it through the last weeks of the school year πŸ’–πŸ€— πŸ’–

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  24. dornahainds
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 19:04:39

    Fall down eight times, brush off your shoulders, and Stand Up nine. 😎πŸ₯€

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  25. Losing the Plot
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 17:29:55

    Jeepers, I know exactly what you mean, think a few things have caught up with me too. Hope you get some R&R xxx

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  26. Diana Frajman
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 15:55:44

    Fill your creative well dear Ritu. Too many expectations have drained it.

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  27. syl65
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 15:54:57

    Shipping you some much spark, free of charge Sister!

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  28. robbiesinspiration
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 15:34:39

    Hmmm! I don’t know because I never feel like this but maybe you should just not worry so much about it. Post when you feel like it and read and comment when you feel like it.

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  29. Dorinda Duclos
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 14:00:15

    We all hit that wall at some point. Don’t be hard on yourself. You’ve accomplished so much recently. Give yourself a chance to breathe! Remember to take care of you first! ❀️

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  30. Annette Rochelle Aben
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 13:59:42

    Allow it to flow naturally. Relax and when the time is right, you SHALL be back in full swing. ❀

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  31. Julie
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 13:55:13

    I’ve been the same way with regard to posting – haven’t been regular about it lately – just too much going on and not enough oomph. Sorry about the migraines. Give your batteries time to recharge, we’ll still be here when your spark comes back. ❀

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  32. Osyth
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 13:15:29

    Take. Your. Time. Be gentle on yourself. I promise everyone will be much happier if you come back fresh at the right time than stale and sluggish at the wrong time πŸ™‚

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  33. lbeth1950
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 12:50:57

    I get that way. You need a break.

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  34. Kurian
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 11:39:14

    I think this is just the sign of the beginning of great posts appearing from you Ritu. Just waiting for that good thing

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  35. Jim
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 11:36:15

    you’ll find your groove back Stella πŸ˜‰

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  36. Dan Antion
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 10:43:59

    A little rest might be a good thing. You’ve dealt with a lot of deadlines, skipping a few won’t hurt. I predict that when the gates open, it will be like a flood.

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  37. SickChristine
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 10:34:03

    It happens. Give it time. The words will come. Much love. ❀️

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  38. willowdot21
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 10:12:38

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  39. willowdot21
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 10:10:48

    You have hit the wall Sis, no more no less. You do so much, I won’t list it you know. Like a marathon runner you are at the point where the tank is empty. I am glad you’re not panicking.. there is NO NEED to! Carry on as you are, be busy at school, take care of the family… Blogging and the book can wait. We are here, we love you, we will be here when you return. Enjoy your blogging and writing break.πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ

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  40. Becky Ellis
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 09:55:52

    Give yourself the gift of taking your time, you deserve it. You have so much on your plate, it is only natural that you need to recharge your batteries. πŸ’—πŸ˜€

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  41. James Riddett
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 09:28:05

    I would say take your time Ritu. The urge to write will come back naturally I’m sure πŸ™‚

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  42. thebeasley
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 09:18:23

    It’s weird how this has hit some of us at the same. I’m the same. Am taking a blogging break as need to rekindle my writing spark. We all need a break from time to time though and we’re only human. Just chill and don’t worry too much about it. You’ll find your sparkle again soon enough xx

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  43. Mona
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 09:08:48

    Take your time. You deserve a break with so many things happening around you. I am sure you’ll be back in no time. Good luck.. πŸ‘

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  44. pensitivity101
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 08:53:17

    We all need a break Ritu.

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  45. Radhika Acharya
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 08:13:42

    I think I’m beginning to understand how you’re feeling. I seem to be entering that phase too myself. I’ve got so many ideas but I keep putting off the actual writing part. A writing lethargy seems to have got to me!! Hope you and I come out of it soon!!

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  46. TanGental
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 07:15:14

    When I started blogging I was running my wip of What turned out to be My first novel. I became conflicted. If I crafted posts in the time available I could not give the precious wip the time it needed and vice versa so both suffered for a while. But I bet as soon as you begin to polish the wip you’ll refind some blogging energy. Just don’t force. We will all still be here enjoying whatever shape your presence takes
    Much loves Queen R!

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  47. shelleywilson72
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 07:06:19

    Oh, I’m so sorry to hear you are feeling like this, Ritu, but I fully understand. I’ve backed off from social media recently because the notifications were like a booming cannon in my head! You deserve time to work on those projects that you are passionate about. I’ve just signed up for CampNaNo in July to give myself space to work on my next novel – maybe I’ll see you around the camp fire πŸ˜‰

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  48. D. Avery @shiftnshake
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 06:50:28

    Don’t worry about it. Just keep a glow in the coal, you can always fan it to a sparking fire later. Everything in its time. Wiser not to force it.

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  49. NJ
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 06:45:45

    I get you dear πŸ™‚ Take your time πŸ™‚ I know you will be back with a punch πŸ™‚

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  50. pranabaxom
    Jun 12, 2018 @ 06:43:31

    And if you have some extra spark left (once you find yours), send it this side. Getting more interested in cooking than writing.

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