Sustained exhaustion is not a rite of passage. It’s a mark of stupidity.
Jason Fried
Yup, I gotta agree Spidey.
I’ve been fighting this for a while now. The tiredness.
And yet, the last few years, I have worked through it.
Burning the candle at both ends, so to speak, has not been uncommon in my life the last few years. I’m up at 6, pottering, getting lunches ready, tidying the kitchen, having a cup of tea, before being at school for 7.45am, until 5 – 5.30pm.
Every September, the beginning of the school year will weave a web of exhaustion around me, yet I still get home, do my motherly chores after a busy day teaching, keep house as I want to, write, or blog, then read myself to sleep.
Yet this year, it’s different.
I am really happy at school.
The excitement of my new class has kept me going, and though there are some hard children to deal with, I have a lovely bunch, my Beauts, as I have christened them, yet I still keep getting asked “What’s the matter?” or “You looke stressed.” and when I answer that everything is fine, I get the question back, “Are you sure?”
And the truth of the matter is, I really am fine.
I love my job, my family life is wonderful.
I’m just dog tired.
So much so, that I get home and once I finally sit down, I find myself falling asleep almost straight away.
Now you know me, one to read 15-20 books in a month, despite all the rest of the stuff I do, but this month, I am still reading, yet moments after starting, I find I have fallen asleep, and I wake an hour later, realising the kids are still awake, and I am lying on my bed, fully dressed, Kindle now asleep too.
My brain is not running at full right now.
I am running low on creativity.
So I decided that I need to take one element of pressure off myself.
I stopped blogging challenges.
And that has been strange. I am used to writing stories or flash fiction every day, more or less, for years. But I really just couldn’t do it.
So that is why you haven’t seen my name pinging up in your Reader, or inbox as much this last week.
And I don’t know how much longer, but I need to stay on this break for a while, I think.
I’m okay, though. Don’t worry about me. I might just visit the doctor about the extreme tiredness, but I just need to rest my brain a little for a while.
Don’t worry. I shan’t stay away totally.
Spidey won’t stay silent, and I’ll stillpsot my Chai and a Chat catch ups, and I’ll still be reading your posts!
Until I feel creatively full, my Peeps!
Ritu
